This Medicine Makes Me Feel Like....
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Doing absolutely nothing...nothing at all....however, while I lay on the couch the last several days...amazing things have happened. Wanna know what? Well, for one, Noni clogged the toilet up with a whole roll of Charmin - the double roll kind- so, after Joey got the plunger and unclogged it, I had a crap stained from bowl to outer rim toilet to clean...then, I went into the laundry room, to try and make myself do something, I figured laundry would be the way to start. Oh hell, there was a substance that looked just like blood all over my floor. After counting kidz and kittens I knew that nothing had happened to them, I realized Nathan had turned the freezer off, and it was a mixture of some sort of wild animal blood. Deer, rabbit...squirrel...who the hell knows. I threw some kitty litter on it and went and laid back down. I'll clean it up when he moves the freezer out and takes all the spoiled meat out of it. I turned it back on, so it wouldn't stink the house up. Hell, I may never get up again. Well, I did, I guess, to come in here and bitch about it. I have some pics and stuff to post tomorrow...if I get off the couch...lol...nah...I have to I guess....the house is falling down around me...
Well, It's Official...And I Have the Papers to Prove It....
Monday, July 09, 2007
Blogging is going to be sparse for a week or so, I am trying to adjust to some medication given to me by my doctor. I've been labeled crazy. Well, they call it Major Depressive Disorder. I had a horrible day yesterday. Everything was going great around here, and I screwed it all up. I won't go into too much detail and bore you all, but lets just say, I self medicated to a point that bordered on ridiculous. Technically, a person that has a low tolerance for medications probably wouldn't be here. I, however, have an enormous tolerance and therefore take way more...and live. I act stupid, and out of it,I stumble and slur but I live. I always seem to do this stupid shit, especially if I haven't slept in 3 or 4 days. Yep, I have sleep depravation along with depression...great. Do you know if you can last 3 days with no sleep, sooner or later you start to see things that aren't there? No? Me, neither. I think it's when all is well in the Nutz household that I get antsy...knowing it will end soon. So, I go ahead and end it myself. I become the screwed up one. I am hoping the medication I was given, Effexor ER 75mg and later it will be 150 mg helps. So, don't think I am gone....I will be back....I just gotta adjust to life a bit.
Labels: depression, Effexor
Ahhh....Today Was A Good Day....
Thursday, February 01, 2007
I don't believe the difference a few pills make in a person's life. Nicklaus came in, had his snack and DID HIS HOMEWORK. No yelling, no fussing, and no mindless repetitions of nonsensical phrases< (his latest was "giant rodents, giant rodents, giant rodents" repeated a million times....now you understand the name of the blog, huh?) Nicklaus decided that was a key phrase when we were going to the doctor the other day-WITH MY PARENTS-and their van broke down, on the side of the road. Nerves were frayed, and the mindless droning of "GIANT RODENTS, GIANT RODENTS, GIANT RODENTS" made, the usually unflappable Nanny (my mom) yell, "Nicklaus, honey, please, please SHUT UP...JUST SHUT UP, why are you saying Giant Rodents????" Yep...we all giggled a little bit, until, yep you guessed it, as we sat there stranded on the side of the road, the chorus of "Giant Rodents" began again. As usual I had my trusty camera, and this is what the Natester looked like....kinda bewildered by the whole "Giant Rodent" serenade, ya think? Or is it more, "Mom, please make him shut the hell up!"?
We've even got the bipolar, crazy ass husband's medications in sync with life (for now.) He was taking it all wrong. He takes 1500 mg of Depakote a day, he's supposed to take 1 Depakote and 1 of the Zyprexa pills in the morning and then 2 Depakote and an Effexor at night. He's been taking all of them at night, even when I told him that it wasn't the correct way. He started listening to me and the higher dosage of Zyprexa is really helping too....So much so that he and Nicklaus sat down and played a game of checkers, he sat and let Noni read to him. It was almost like a normal house....except for the fact that it is STILL the NUTZ household!!!
And the unexpected always happens...for instance....Nathan and I were here today, in our "potty training mode" and he comes up to me and says, "Momma I Dooooooooookied" no I did not teach him that word, it must have been one of the others. So, I tell him, "You've been telling mommy all day that you are not a baby you are a boy, boys don't "dookie" in their pants!" So, my little cherub looks at me and says, "I a stink butt momma..." and as I change him, he grins his maniacal little grin and asks, "I wotten Momma??" Which translates, "Am I rotten?" To which a mom can only say, "Yes, you stink like...errr...DOOOOOOOOKIIIIIIEEEEEEE"
Labels: ADHD, bipolar, crazy ass husband, Depakote, Effexor, Joey, Nathan, Nicklaus, Potty Training, Zyprexa