Well, It's Official...And I Have the Papers to Prove It....
Monday, July 09, 2007
Blogging is going to be sparse for a week or so, I am trying to adjust to some medication given to me by my doctor. I've been labeled crazy. Well, they call it Major Depressive Disorder. I had a horrible day yesterday. Everything was going great around here, and I screwed it all up. I won't go into too much detail and bore you all, but lets just say, I self medicated to a point that bordered on ridiculous. Technically, a person that has a low tolerance for medications probably wouldn't be here. I, however, have an enormous tolerance and therefore take way more...and live. I act stupid, and out of it,I stumble and slur but I live. I always seem to do this stupid shit, especially if I haven't slept in 3 or 4 days. Yep, I have sleep depravation along with depression...great. Do you know if you can last 3 days with no sleep, sooner or later you start to see things that aren't there? No? Me, neither. I think it's when all is well in the Nutz household that I get antsy...knowing it will end soon. So, I go ahead and end it myself. I become the screwed up one. I am hoping the medication I was given, Effexor ER 75mg and later it will be 150 mg helps. So, don't think I am gone....I will be back....I just gotta adjust to life a bit.
Labels: depression, Effexor
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