I guess it would have helped to actually if I had read some catholic books that explained what Catholicism was about. I mean a book that explained the Basic Faith principles would have been very explanatory. See, I was under the impression that I could basically go out and murder the world, as long as I left priests and nuns alone, and then go in and say, "Father, forgive me, it's been since never that I've confessed..." He would tell me to do a couple of Hail Mary's and I'd be home free. It doesn't work like that....darn!